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No I was never angry at anybody especially not God. I had a lot of regrets and I wish I could of seen him or talked to him more because he lived in Hawaii so it seem like I missed him then I miss him now and I will miss him forever. But I am blessed because as a child I had my son’s in church they knew who Jesus was and they were all saved so it helps to comfort me because I know that he is with God.
No, I believe my faith has helped with that, but on a couple of occasions, I have wished I could just lash out at someone. That is so not me though, and it always scares me to wonder where that thought had come from.
Yes I’m angry. Erica quit on me. Kids were bullying her. I wasn’t there enough for her. Anger is everywhere. I’m angry i can’t have answers.
I am so sorry for whatever happened with Erica…
Angry that he bought a motorcycle, thinking he could win his wife back.
Yes some days
right now I am in a kind of angry stage, but it comes and goes. When it comes: I am a bit dangerous. I bite people’s heads off and am just so angry inside. Not really sure who I’m angry at. Not God. Not Tilly. Don’t know, just angry. Don’t like it but trying to give myself grace and allow God to be at work.
It’s a stage of grief that I will go through no matter what so I chose to get my anger out in a productive way. I am mad because of everything that will never be, but in God’s ultimate plan, my loved ones completed the job they were put here to do and then went home. All of the never-will-bes were never going to be. I just say the Serenity Prayer over and over whenever I feel anger.
Many grieving parents experience anger with God. I am grateful that I do not. To me, to be angry with God for calling Drew home to Him would be hypocritical. It would negate all the joy and thankfulness I feel for having 20 precious years with my beautiful Drew.
I do not judge others for feeling anger with God. I was only grateful in the midst of feeling absolutely shattered by Drew’s death that I could still call out to God, call out to Jesus for moment by moment comfort…knowing that He would never leave me.
I lost my baby girl and everyday I think it should have been me. I know God heals but He decided not to heal my baby so I wasn’t worthy of that. I feel guilty being alive. As a mom I should have been able to find away for her to live, protect her, but I failed. I will never get over that.
Yes I believe I am. Only recently have I began to recognize that feeling. Since my own birth I had never felt safe and loved. Then with fertility help I had this wonderful child. I finally knew and understood love in the purest form. All my past life was no longer important. I had my blessing for 25 years when a rare virus slips in and steals him away. I am grateful for those years, but tho we’re not enough for this mothers heart. Yes, I am angry.
I am mad to be honest, he left me in the prime of our lives. I know it wasn’t his fault but I’m still mad. We have 2 children who adored him and him the same. I’m scared some days, depressed some days (even though I take medication) and some days i have a hard time concentrating. Now I take one day at a time and if I get through it, I consider myself lucky.
I know I shouldn’t be angry but I do get so angry. People have kids that don’t care anything about them or there mean evil people. They live life making others miserable. I wanted my one and only child but lost him. I know God gave his only begotten son and I guess he needed mine also.
Yes, I am. And I think if I could get over the anger, this would help me. We are starting a church tomorrow, and I am hoping this will help. But I am angry. Like they say, it is not normal to bury your child, your children are to bury you.
Not for having my daughter die, but the first few weeks after she passed, I wanted to know in no uncertain terms why I stayed and not go with her.