Hope After
November 16th, 2019
On July 19th, 2011 my brother, Andrew, called me. I was getting ready for a meeting, so I didn’t pick up his call. He texted and told me to call him as soon as possible....  Read More
Hope After Suicide
November 13th, 2019
The phone rang. It was 7:34 am. I grabbed it before it rang the second time. It was my husband, Don. “Is Philip in his room?” he asked. “Yes.” “Is the van home?” “Yes, why?” My heart started beating f...  Read More
Malaikye's Legacy Lives On!
November 13th, 2019
There comes a time in your life when you see your existence through a whole different set of eyes. Sometimes, through tragedy you find a deeper appreciation for this thing called life and all it entai...  Read More
Grief the Unspoken
November 6th, 2019
I started to experience loss at the age of five. I found my baby sister deceased in her bassinet. I also feel that was the first time I would lose my mother. She was in a world of grief. ...  Read More
Amazing Grace
November 6th, 2019
This is a beautiful rendition of Amazing Grace played at Ellie's Memorial service....  Read More
Heaven Just Got Better
November 6th, 2019
John Waller offered to sing at Ellie’s memorial service. He chose to sing “Heaven Just Got Better” which he wrote for his mother who passed away the year before....  Read More
To-Do List
November 6th, 2019
Here’s something I found awhile after Ellie died. It was touching and I wanted to share it. I was finally getting around to cleaning up my desk, and I found a piece of paper. ...  Read More
Ellie's Last Sticky Note
November 6th, 2019
Six-year-old Ellie was always watching people. One day, she noticed that I was leaving encouraging sticky notes around the house for Mommy. She informed me “Daddy, where is my note?” ...  Read More
The Baseball Instructor
November 6th, 2019
A few years ago, I took my son to his baseball hitting lesson. We really liked the instructor. I was just being friendly and inquired about his kids. He informed me that his son had committed suicide ...  Read More
Two Dreams
November 5th, 2019
I didn’t want to wake up, no matter what I was dreaming about. It was a surreal moment to me when reality was worse than any nightmare I can remember....  Read More
Ellie's T-Ball Coach
November 5th, 2019
I was in line at a restaurant. The man behind me looked familiar, but he would not look my way. He was busy ordering and I considered just not engaging in any conversation. But, then there was a delay...  Read More
911 Operator
November 5th, 2019
Ellie was lying on the floor. I wasn’t sure what was going on, but it didn’t look good. I called 911. A friendly voice answered and inquired about my emergency. ...  Read More