It seems surreal to be sharing our experience of loss. With life, loss is inevitable. During our 20 years of marriage, that four letter word has entered our life in different forms. We’ve lived throug...  Read More

On July 19th, 2011 my brother, Andrew, called me. I was getting ready for a meeting, so I didn’t pick up his call. He texted and told me to call him as soon as possible....  Read More

The phone rang. It was 7:34 am. I grabbed it before it rang the second time. It was my husband, Don. “Is Philip in his room?” he asked. “Yes.” “Is the van home?” “Yes, why?” My heart started beating f...  Read More

There comes a time in your life when you see your existence through a whole different set of eyes. Sometimes, through tragedy you find a deeper appreciation for this thing called life and all it entai...  Read More

I started to experience loss at the age of five. I found my baby sister deceased in her bassinet. I also feel that was the first time I would lose my mother. She was in a world of grief. ...  Read More

This is a beautiful rendition of Amazing Grace played at Ellie's Memorial service....  Read More

John Waller offered to sing at Ellie’s memorial service. He chose to sing “Heaven Just Got Better” which he wrote for his mother who passed away the year before....  Read More

Here’s something I found awhile after Ellie died. It was touching and I wanted to share it. I was finally getting around to cleaning up my desk, and I found a piece of paper. ...  Read More

Six-year-old Ellie was always watching people. One day, she noticed that I was leaving encouraging sticky notes around the house for Mommy. She informed me “Daddy, where is my note?” ...  Read More

A few years ago, I took my son to his baseball hitting lesson. We really liked the instructor. I was just being friendly and inquired about his kids. He informed me that his son had committed suicide ...  Read More

I didn’t want to wake up, no matter what I was dreaming about. It was a surreal moment to me when reality was worse than any nightmare I can remember....  Read More

I was in line at a restaurant. The man behind me looked familiar, but he would not look my way. He was busy ordering and I considered just not engaging in any conversation. But, then there was a delay...  Read More